Day 99: Four.Fourteen.13

This blog has been a personal journey, to be sure. But also, very much a public one. The changes that are occurring within me, around me, by me… would not BE if this was simply a journal project never to be shared.

I am grateful for every like, for every follower. I feel a community amongst complete strangers that is somehow, well, comforting. And inspiring. I am often surprised by which posts receive likes. And I am glad for this – that it is not a formula, that I can’t predict what will be appreciated. It helps me to keep doing me, without focusing too much on what others might want to see, hear, read…

But then there’s this other side.

It is almost certain that the most intensely personal, raw, vulnerable posts (whether they be my writing or dancing) end up with the least amount of likes.

This is my true test.

I am pushing myself to find my voice, and my space to SPEAK in this world regardless of what I think others may think about it.

So I will keep it up. And be as grateful for the void, the silence, as I am for the likes and follows and comments.

Here’s to another day of creativity…


Day 89: Four.Four.13

my world is upside down.

everyday feels simultaneously like work and a vacation.

i therefore seem to have forgotten how to really appreciate a day of downtime.

my struggle today was to get off the couch.

and then when i didn’t (well actually i was up and out early but then back on the couch by the afternoon) my struggle was to not make myself feel bad about it.

i’m also actively working to not feel bad that there wasn’t much creativity pouring out of me today.

sometimes, a break is exactly what is needed to regroup, refuel, recharge.

forward movement tomorrow.

Here’s to another day of creativity…

Day 80: Three.TwentySix.13

liebster award

I am honored to have been nominated for the Liebster Award by Ruminationville – a wonderful blog, who also received the award. You should go and read it. All of it.

Here are the rules of the award:

1. Post eleven facts about yourself.

(In no particular order):

  1. I really dislike feet. This deserves more of an explanation, particularly since my feet are my livelihood as a dancer. But I’m trying to keep this brief so will leave you to wonder how this can be.
  2. I want to own a barn someday. I want it to be part of an eco-friendly community arts center.
  3. I studied at four colleges/universities before finally finishing my degree.
  4. I believe in being nice. And in smiles. And most definitely in hugs.
  5. I’m not known for brevity in writing. I’m having difficulty not writing a dissertation in these 11 facts.
  6. I have been to Cuba. It was life-changing. I hope to have many more life-altering travel adventures.
  7. I once had my eyebrow pierced. I took it out when I got my nose pierced.
  8. My first job was in a video store. Waaaay back when those things existed.
  9. My cd collection includes everything from Dixie Chicks to Kurtis Blow. Yes, I still have cds.
  10. I am (slightly) obsessed with pink flamingos.
  11. I want to help make the world a better place.

2. Answer the questions the tagger has set for you and create eleven questions for people you’ve nominated.

  1. What is your happiest memory?
    Such a difficult question. I’m not sure I know how to answer it except to say that I am most definitely dancing in my happiest memories. And laughing.
  2. What three words would you use to describe your closest friend?
    Genuine, limitlessly talented, hilarious
  3. What is your favorite thing to eat?
    Pizza. And brownies. (I know, that’s two favorite things…)
  4. Where is the last place on earth you would want to go?
    I think this question is asking where I do NOT want to go on earth. I can’t really think of one (except maybe DC in the middle of summer in the middle of a cicada attack.) But since that is going to actually be my reality in a few months, I am going to instead answer it as if it was asking where I would want to spend my last days on this earth. In that case, it would be somewhere in the Greek Isles.
  5. What is one thing you would change about the past?
    I would be kinder to myself.
  6. What food would you be happy never to eat again?
    Tomatoes. At least in their raw form. Bleh.
  7. What is your favorite movie?
  8. What is the kindest thing someone has done for you?
    Let me be myself. And love me for it.
  9. What is one thing you would not be able to forgive?
    Lying. I would much rather know the truth, even if it hurts.
  10. What makes you laugh?
    I’m not sure I can narrow it down to one thing. I love to laugh. I try to do it as much as possible.
  11. What do you want to learn this year?
    Gardening. Particularly, Guerilla Gardening. (I wrote about it in Day 79.)

3. Choose eleven people (with fewer than 200 followers) to give this award to and link them in your post.

I have selected two blogs to pass this award on to. Not because there aren’t millions out there deserving of this award, but because I am not a well-rounded blog reader. Yet.

Both of these blogs, I believe, have received this award in the past. So I completely accept the fact that my round of the Liebster Award may end here with me. (Man I would be terrible at chain letters. Oh right, I am.) I still want to acknowledge these two blogs because well, they deserve it:

Girls Like Giants

The Belle Jar

This is a pretty great Liebster acceptance, should you care to read it. Much more creative than my response.

4. Go to their page and tell them.

5. Remember, no tag backs.

Here’s to another day of creativity…

Day 57: Three.Three.13

Inspiration hasn’t been abundant as of late. Or rather, I should say, the inspiration has been here, but I haven’t been able to do much with it. I am trying to be kind to myself, given the upheaval and uncertainty that makes up my recent days. Because while I don’t have much emotion about it all right now – the recent move, leaving my job, not having a steady routine or even knowing what my routine will look like in a few days, weeks, months, etc. I know that the reaction is there. I can feel it bubbling up. I know it’s going to surface any day, and at that point, to be sure, there will be much want – and need – to create.

Until then, I am doing my best to LIVE, love, and use my heART with great intention. Possibly, even, a bit of abandon.

Here’s to another day of creativity…

Day 32: Two.Six.13

I don’t plan these posts out in advance. So far at least. I find something each day that sparks an interest or thought, and I go with it. For the most part, it seems to be working rather well. But tonight, I just can’t find that bit of inspiration.

I had a troubling communication with a former student of mine, and it’s caused my heart to hurt. That hurt, in turn, has blocked out all ability to be creative. At least for today.

Here’s to another day of creativity…

Days 9/10: One.Fourteen/Fifteen.13

This being sick is the worst. The worst part of it all? It sucks all of the creativity right out of you. I hope I am back tomorrow, refreshed and reinvigorated. Thanks for sticking with me as I get off to a shaky start with this project.

Here’s to another day of creativity…

Day 8: One.Thirteen.13

Today was a sick day. After more than a week of pretending I wasn’t, I spent almost all of today in bed, feeling sorry for myself. About the most creative thing I did was update my Pandora stations.

Back tomorrow, hopefully with a renewed sense of artfulness and spirit…

Here’s to another day of creativity…