The perfectionist in me doesn’t want to share this video. The newly bold/brave/courageous/uninhibited me who started this blog in the first place is posting it anyway.
I got unnecessarily shy and nervous filming even just these mere 40 seconds. I’m like, tripping/falling all over myself. Eww.
I am having such a hard time stepping out of my ‘dancer’s block’ and embracing that I just am. being. No matter what comes out. The song is so hauntingly beautiful, in my opinion, and deserves movement that complements it. I don’t want to let anyone down – not myself, not my colleagues, not those who asked me to be part of this show. I have rushed ahead and told myself I won’t measure up, even before I have given myself a chance to explore the possibilities. A reminder that I need to slow. down. As usual.
This is day two of playing in the studio. I still have very little direction, but am going to trust that these small pieces, as disparate as they may seem, will come together into something ‘bigger than me’ (as the song in today’s video says.)
Here’s to another day of creativity…